All Aboard the Mentorship: A Discussion with Shantel Martinez and Bryant Taylor
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Thanks
again for listening into Your
Shadow Advisor, a weekly program
about navigating higher
education from a first
generation person of color
perspective. I'm your host
Professor Darrel Wanzer-Serrano.
Y'all. I'm really excited to be
doing this recording this week
because this is my first guest
interview for the show. And it's
a big one because I have two
guests virtually with me to talk
about mentorship today.
Shantel Martinez is the director
of first generation programs and
enrichment for the University of
Colorado Boulder. She has a PhD
in communication and media with
an emphasis in index
communication and Gender Studies
from the University of Illinois
Urbana Champaign. As a
practitioner scholar, she sent
her storytelling and narrative
practices to examine cycles of
intergenerational trauma and
survival in both familial and
educational spaces to utilize as
this research to inform her
approach to build mentorship
pipelines, form community and
cultivate narratives of
survival. Thank you so much for
being here.
Shantel Martinez: Thank you so
much for having me. I really
appreciate it.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Also
joining us is Bryant Taylor,
who's from the Bay Area
California, and it's currently a
PhD student at the University of
Oregon in their inaugural
indigenous race and ethnic
studies program. His research
interests include black queer
homemaking, oral histories,
archives, and queer video game
spaces. Thanks so much for
joining me, Bryant.
Bryant Taylor: Yeah, thank you
so much for having me super
excited to be here.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: So
Shantel, and I go way back. And
I always cherish the opportunity
to share space with her even if
only virtual. And Brian, I'm
meeting for the first time
today. But I'm excited to talk
about your perspectives and
experiences on mentorship,
something that the two of you
have mutual experience in and
have even crafted a forthcoming
essay about. So thank you so
much for joining me today to
talk about this stuff. And and
talk about other things related
to the themes of this podcast.
Shantel Martinez: Yes, thank you
so much.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: So, you
know, I want to start today with
a question that, that I've that
I've just kind of personally
enjoyed for a long time. When I
when I had a previous podcast,
anytime we had a guest anytime
we ran a roundtable at a
conference, I'd always lead off
with a version of this question.
And it's one that I've kind of
that I kind of used in my first
episode for this program, as
well. And that's a question
that, that I kind of
conceptualize and frame around
superheroes for some reason.
The broadest version of the
question is, what is your
superhero origin story? Right?
How do you get? How did you get
started on your path in higher
education, to go to grad school
to enter professional life, etc?
And what motivated you and what
enabled your movement into and
through these spaces? So where
do you come from? How did you
get to where you are?
Shantel Martinez: Bryant, do you
want to go first? Or do you want
me to take it?
Bryant Taylor: Oh, yeah, I can
go first. So my superhero origin
story starts in Oakland,
California, where I'm from a the
bay. And yeah, I graduated high
school. And I decided that from
high school, I would go to
community college one because
money in financial stress is
very, very real. I wasn't, I was
also not like, the greatest
student at the time. So it just
gave me an opportunity to figure
things out. But I think it kind
of laid the foundation for me to
figure out like, what mentorship
looks like how to ask for
resources, how to navigate
college without necessarily
having so many people crowding
me at like a large university.
So it was a very, very fun
experience. From there, I
transferred to California State
University Monterey Bay, where I
met with the wonderful Shantel
Martinez. And then yeah, after
that, did my two years there and
then I moved to University of
Oregon, where I've been happy
ever since.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: I don't
know if you know this. I'm also
from the Pacific Northwest. I
grew up in western Washington
state. So I'm familiar with
Oregon, and went to went to
Eugene, at least once a year for
every year I was in college for
debate tournaments.
Bryant Taylor: Really was what
was Eugene like, then because I
can tell you what it's like now.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Eugene
was a town full of free spirited
people doing free spirited
things on the quad. And this was
this was like the mid 90s. And
so it was kind of the the rise
of craft breweries and stuff.
And so there was like, a lot of
good beer and other things.
Yeah, it's definitely it's
definitely the same I would say
a lot of experience.
Bryant Taylor: You know, Eugene,
Eugene, it's gonna it's gonna be
what it is. But yeah,
definitely, definitely similar
vibes.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Shantel,
what about you?
Shantel Martinez: So it's
really. A funny, my, my
superhero story actually starts
with Indiana Jones. So I am a
child of the 80s, who pretty
much grew up on MTV and all the
movies, all the 80s movies that
your little heart could desire.
But growing up first generation,
low income, the TV was also kind
of part of my of being a
babysitter for me and my family.
And I remember watching Indiana
Jones and really loving the
adventures he went on, and that
he was this professor, and that
he was, you know, creating this
new knowledge and all of that.
And so all of a sudden, I wanted
to be a professor at age five, I
was like, I'm going to be
Professor too. So I used to get
all my stuffed animals, and
pretend to give them tests. And
mind you, I was also the oldest
of my siblings, and the oldest
of my cousins. So I spent a lot
of time kind of having to figure
it out myself and to entertain
myself. And so I used to give
them tests, and then I would
grade them. And then I would
sign my name, Dr. Shantel
Martinez, or Shantel Martinez,
PhD, and my family again, you
know, not having no access to
college was just like, What is
this? How does she know what a
PhD is? Again, hashtag Thank
you, Indiana Jones. But they
just kind of thought it was it
was a phase, right. But I knew
from a really young age, I just
had this drive and love for
lifelong learning and for
knowledge production. And so I
also say that I come from the
land of contradictions, because
I come from both the Palm
Springs area, which is the land
of deserts and California, but
also to the Pacific Northwest
connection, I did the majority
of all my schooling in the
Seattle area. And so I would do
school years with my mom in the
Pacific Northwest, and then
summers, with my dad in Palm
Springs. So I also took around,
I kind of got the worst of both
worlds, where it was always
raining, like nine months in and
then really, really hot during
the summer. But you know, from
there, I was really fortunate to
have a family that was really
supportive of education and to
going to college. And so I ended
up going to the University of
Washington Go Huskies, I still
believe purple and gold. And it
was there that I really got to
know the importance of
mentorship, especially at such a
large, you know, PWI where, you
know, you feel like you're a
face and a sea of faces. And
simultaneously, you also feel
hyper visible because you are a
person of color. And I remember
really being taken in by the new
trio, Sss support, McNair, and
other faculty members of color
who really, you know, uplifted
me in my experiences, and then
really helped showcase like the
way in which to get to grad
school because again, I knew I
wanted to get that PhD. And so I
ended up going to the University
of Illinois, Urbana Champaign.
First thing here was to get my
PhD in education, and the good
old 2008 Slash 2009 recession
hit. And the program that I went
into, ended up facing major,
major budget cuts and
restructuring where they
basically collapsed five
programs into one. And almost
every single person that I went
to go work with left. And you
know, being first generation, no
one told me that this could
happen that this was the thing
that your mentors could leave,
your advisors could leave, you
know, no one, no one told me
that they were just like, oh,
just go to grad school, then
you'll get your PhD and you'll
be fine. And so I had a lot of
soul searching and a lot of
learning from mistakes in grad
school. And I'm really, really
vulnerable and really, really
open about these experiences
with like Bryant or other
students that I mentor, because
I think that especially being
first generation, you know, yes,
there's things that we just
don't know. But there's also
things that I'm like, Just an
FYI, this actually can happen.
And it does happen more often
than you think. And I think it
goes back to, you know, the
whole purpose of this podcast of
highlighting, again, that shadow
advisor, or the, you know,
hidden curriculum, or the
stories that are sometimes
stole, you know, told underneath
our breath, but are not
necessarily public. And I think
that again, I really, truly
value this invitation to be on
this podcast with you to talk
about these issues, especially
from this first generation
perspective. So yes, hashtag
Indiana Jones and the Pacific
Northwest
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Ah god, I
loved Indiana Jones as a kid
too. I you know, it's funny.
It's funny that Indiana Jones
got us started from an early age
wanting to be a professor. I
knew early that I wanted to go
to college and be the first in
my in my family to do so. And I
knew from a pretty early age
that I wanted to be a teacher.
But you know, for me it was it
was probably like being a middle
school teacher or being a high
school teacher because that's
who had the kind of, you know,
in middle school it was it was
Mark Vetter in social studies,
Social Studies seminar, who like
gave me that passion for
learning right and really kind
of like took took us seriously
as students and got me motivated
and wanting to be really wanting
to be a teacher. I didn't really
even think about college, about
being a university professor and
going to graduate school and
stuff like that until until much
later. Right? But love to hear
those Indiana Jones I'm sure
like punching Nazis also is
like, you know, part of that
motivation, right?
Shantel Martinez: Of course
always.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: So, you
know, speaking of that
transition into graduate school,
right and going and going into
graduate school, and I'm
wondering for, for for the both
of you, each of you
independently. How prepared Do
you think you were to start
graduate school? Like, how much
access Do you think you had to
what some folks call the hidden
curriculum that underwrites grad
school success?
Yeah, like, what was that? What
was that transition period like
for you? Because like, Shantel,
you mentioned that you had
people like pathways and people
encouraging you to go to
graduate school. We didn't
really like, I don't remember
that being a real part of my
undergraduate experience. I
mean, how I, I like, I only
applied to the place, I ended up
going to graduate school,
because I like happen to find
the application that I printed
out and like, left on the floor
in my apartment, while I was
cleaning, close to the end of
the semester procrastinating
doing my work, right. I'm like,
oh, I should apply for this. Oh,
I have to take the GRE. Oh, that
deadline is coming up soon.
Because this is 1998, I guess.
And there, you know, it wasn't
all online back then. Anyway, so
the there are a lot of like,
accidents that that got me to
the point of actually being able
to apply to the place that I
ended up going to, and how I got
in, I still don't fully
understand because like, I
wasn't the best test taker, my
GPA was mouquet. Right? It
wasn't the best GPA? And I'm
glad I did. But so like, how
prepared Do you think you were
to succeed once you were there?
And to get into the first place?
Shantel Martinez: Yeah. I
really, really love this
question. Because I think you're
absolutely right about all those
happy little accidents that
happen. So one happy accident
that happened was, you know, my
very first year at the
University of Washington, I
never lived in the residence
halls, I was always a commuter
student, I actually always lived
with family or had my own
apartment. And I remember that
first year again, the advice
given to me by my parents was go
to school and go to work and do
both do good at both right? It
was never about getting involved
in clubs, or doing undergraduate
research or internships or study
abroad, it was basically go to
work and go to school. And
that's, that's what colleges
that's how you'll be successful.
And that's pretty much what I
did my first year. And I
remember, I was a trio student,
because again, first generation
low income. And I remember being
late for a trio appointment with
my advisor during the summer.
And so I was running through
Schmitz Hall because I couldn't
find parking on the Ave. And you
know, I was running up and I was
turning the hallway. And I
physically ran into this man,
and ended up being Dr. Steve
Woodard, who is one of my
lifelong mentors to this day.
I've known him now, half my
life. And he was like, whoa,
whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, what do
you Where are you going? Why are
you in such a rush? And I was
just like, I'm really sorry. I
ran, I'm late to an appointment
with my advisor. And he was
like, Well, what are you talking
about? And I was just like, I'm
trying to kind of map out what
my undergrad experience is going
to be like, I'm interested in
going to grad school, but I have
no idea what to do or how to get
there. And he was just like,
Well, my office is on the third
floor, come and visit me when
you're done. And I was like,
okay, and I had no idea who this
guy was, was the first time I'd
ever met him. And I remember
meeting with my advisor who kind
of gave me some help, kind of
didn't, but I was like, You know
what, I'm gonna just follow up
with this guy. Let's just see.
Well, lo and behold, he was the
director of the McNair program.
And again, this was that
critical summer between your
freshman year and your sophomore
year. And to apply for McNair
you have to apply as a
sophomore. And, you know, he sat
me down, and we had a really
long authentic conversation. And
again, he was first generation
himself. And he was just like,
I'm going to keep an eye on you.
And we're going to start working
together. And I, I felt so
relieved that someone was
interested in me and someone was
invested in me. And from there,
it really bridged into a
beautiful mentorship
relationship, and again, how I
really learned what to what a
good mentor was like. And so I
was involved. In McNair, I was
involved in the Honors Program.
I was involved in undergraduate
research again, all mostly
through his his mentorship. And
so when it came to grad school
and applying to grad school, I
actually felt really, really
prepared because I had the
support systems there. But and
this is the big but when I went
to grad school, I felt again,
intellectually prepared for grad
school. I actually didn't feel
emotionally prepared for grad
school, no one told me about the
hyper, hyper competition amongst
graduate students, including
graduate students of color. No
one told me that it was expected
that you constantly are driving
your own discussion, which
again, I came from a family that
was, you know, don't speak back
to your elders, you know, you
don't constantly critique you,
you listen, and you sit, and you
stay silent and you ponder. Um,
so there was a lot of cultural
elements that I was like, I'm,
I'm really not used to this.
It's not how I was raised. And
then just also this notion of
the performance of grad student,
which I talk and joke around
with Brian all the time, where
it's that trying to, you know,
kind of do that peacock dance,
where you're ruffling your
feathers to show to the faculty,
like, I know what I'm doing, and
you're speaking in academia, and
then other people are just
sitting there, and we're like,
did we read the same thing?
Like, are you sure we read the
same thing. And then also, to
really finding my voice as an
academic, like, I felt like grad
school, really, in some sense,
you know, stripped away my
writing and who I was as a
person, and how I embodied my
research, in order to fit the
cast in the mold that they
wanted me to be there was a lot
of acculturation, and a lot of,
again, that hidden curriculum
norms that I didn't know, oh,
yeah, anytime a faculty member
throws a party, you should be
there. Because that is, you
know, part of your
professionalization. I didn't
know that. And oftentimes, I
also had to have a side job when
I was in grad school. So I'd be
like, sometimes I can't make
these because I actually have to
work and people be like, what?
So I think that there was also
just some, like class tension,
some cultural tensions, and very
much that hidden curriculum that
I wasn't used to, and again,
even though I had phenomenal
mentorship and support systems,
and intellectually, I could go
jab for jab. But that emotional
part of grad school really
chipped away a lot of the
confidence that I had built in
undergrad. And I think also too,
this is my last point that I'll
say is that in grad school, I
really started to learn the
difference between mentorship
and advising. Because not all
advisors are your mentors.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Yeah.
Yeah, for sure. Bryant, you're
nodding along a lot.
Bryant Taylor: Oh, my gosh, yes.
I'm having even though I'm still
in my first year of grad school,
I'm having like, so many
flashbacks being like, yeah,
like, the emotional intensity of
entering the program for the
very first time. It's just so,
so hard. And I think what's
really kind of interesting about
that, too, is that Chantel
shared all those stories with me
before so I kind of had like a
grappling of like what to
expect. But dang, when you're in
it, you're just like, okay, how
am I going to navigate my own
personal story and emotions, as
a graduate student dealing with,
again, the competitiveness and
trying to understand a new
academic language, I think
Chantelle calls it I could,
academia is right, like, when
you professors are just
constantly, you know, using all
these different words that
you've never heard of before,
but then they're expecting you
to know it, and like, say it
back to them, like, ah, let's I
don't know what I'm doing here.
But I guess in terms of how
prepared I felt, starting, I
felt really prepared, honestly.
You know, even though coming
from community college and being
a transfer student, I was also a
McNair Scholar. I also almost
missed the deadline, because I
was a spring term transfer. And
the program starts in the fall.
So I had to do like a summer
researchship with them. And then
they were like, Oh, we really
like you will reopen
application. And so the day and
so I was able to become a
premier scholar later on the
process, which is something that
they don't tell transfer
students that they should
probably should do that. So I
guess going through the McNair
program and having you know, to
do research, having the
mentorship with Dr. Shantel
Martinez really kind of
benefited me, I'm in a lot of
ways not necessarily just in
terms of like the research
aspect, but again, handling like
the hidden curriculum of
graduate school. And kind of
knowing the things beforehand,
so that way you can at least
kind of prepare yourself going
in. But yeah, it's definitely
like it can still be hard even
though you have the knowledge
because I think it hits everyone
differently. And to you also
have your own personal
challenges that you're going
through while in grad school. So
for my first year, the very
first week I was like sick for
like three weeks can go to the
bed like was missing classes.
And then once I recovered, I
tore my Achilles playing tennis,
trying to be impressive for my
club team. And so that knocked
me out pretty much for I want to
say a solid four months of just
trying to do like the physical
therapy missing classes but also
you know, having to do zoom
school having to grade my
students work having to still
read 500 pages a week still
having to you know, take my
midterms and finals and do all
these other things that you know
people Will don't really, I
guess can't really prep you for
life happening to you.
Especially so soon. I definitely
wasn't expecting that to happen,
but it did. Yeah. And I think to
kind of throw it back to
something else that Chantal
mentioned, was just like the, I
guess the lack of family
knowledge about college and
university stuff, because I
think while I was able to
prepare pretty well, during the
second half of my, my, I guess,
undergrad experience, the first
half was pretty much what
Chantal was saying, just about,
you know, go to school go to
work, that was pretty much the
message for my parents, if
you're not working, you better
be doing really well in school.
And so you kind of just kind of
get into that mindset of like,
okay, well, that's pretty much
all that colleges, that's what
you do, right? You just go to
school, you go to work, and then
everything else will kind of
fall in line. But there's a lot
of other stuff, right? You have
to get the internship, you have
to get the the internship
experience, you have to jump
through all these different
hoops to kind of show like, oh,
yeah, I was building something
while I was here. And so that
can be pretty, pretty
exhausting. If you don't kind of
go in knowing what you're going
to do, but when it's when you
kind of make the game plan, it
can be really, really fun.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Yeah, I
mean, no one really, no one ever
told me right? How much of a, I
guess, life choice graduate
school is right? And life
change. It is right? Like, both
you mentioning like the you
know, go to class, do your work,
work at your job, and you just
kind of like go through and do
that as an undergraduate. And
then grad school is like this,
you know, it's like, oh, I only
have three classes. And yeah,
they're harder. But it's only
three classes as opposed to, you
know, whatever you're used to as
a as a as an undergrad. But
like, it's like, all
encompassing, right. And no one
ever really tells you that ahead
of time. You know, Shantel, you
mentioned, like, going to prefer
to go into part, you know, tough
social events, right? That
seemed like it's just something
that's optional, but really
isn't like, isn't fully
optional. Well, so like, how did
you all figure some of that out?
Like, what kinds of resources
right did you find at the time?
So I'm asking you to think back
here. And, Brian, you're
thinking about a year? Shantel
you're thinking back more than a
year? But what kinds of
resources did you find at the
time to help you find your way?
Like, what, what things work
best? And why?
Shantel Martinez: I think that's
a really good question. And also
really quick to go back to what
you were just saying, I think it
is really important to stress
that now to grad students. And,
and this is why I stress to
Brian and the other students
that I mentor is that when
you're going to grad school,
you're again, you're not just a
student, you know, you are also
a human being and a person who
have those personal
developments, whether that means
you're, you're getting married,
you're getting divorced, you're
having children, you know, I
know so many of my friends and
cohort members who went through
that and including myself, like,
in grad school, I got married
and bought my first house, you
know, and so I always tell my
students first and foremost,
like remember, yes, you're a
grad student, and you're also a
human being that has many, many
wants and needs and desires that
exists beyond the Academy. And
that's okay, you need to be able
to fulfill those. So that's just
one thing I wanted to mention
really quickly. But to be
absolutely honest, and really,
really vulnerable.I kind of go
back to in, you're probably
going to have to bleep this out.
Darrel, I will fully I'm giving
you the the warning.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: I've got
my bleeper button ready.
Shantel Martinez: There you go.
I, I go back to my mother's
very, very wise words, which is
f*** around and figure it out.
So but that was really it. I you
know, being a first generation
college student, when I noticed
my peers. First there really
wasn't that many of us, you
know, there really wasn't that
many of us, you know, whether it
was BIPOC, or first generation
students in the room to begin
with, like I had cohort members
and classmates who were the
children or professors who were
reading Foucault at age 18. And
I was like, what? How was this
even possible, you know, and
they already knew the importance
of going to faculty parties,
because they were raised in that
culture, but but I wasn't. So it
really was honestly, making
mistakes of of, you know, again,
finding my own way. I used to
joke around that it was like
walking a path at night, in the
thick forest at midnight, where
there it's not a full moon. It's
a new moon and literally trying
to find your way through this
path and you are stumbling
because you can't see the tree
roots that are in front of you.
And so you have to pick yourself
back up and just continue and
have faith of I'm still moving
forward on this pathway, even if
I don't necessarily see it. And
that's really how I felt in grad
school. I felt like I learned a
lot of less And from fellow
peers, from students who were
more advanced in my program, you
know, I would ask them like, can
I see a copy of your Qualls? Can
I see a copy of your proposal.
And I really learned again to
kind of pay it forward and to
share those resources. So now
with my students, we have a Team
Drive together, where I put
copies of some of my old
graduate student papers, I put
copies of my personal statements
from both my masters and PhD
program in there. So again, they
have something to see and model.
Because for me, again, I
couldn't rely on a family
member. And I also didn't
necessarily know fully the
resources that were available to
me, I didn't know that you could
go to the Career Center, because
again, as a grad student,
especially a doctoral student,
it's really looked down upon if
you're accessing the Career
Center, because you should be
utilizing the resources in your
department. But I kept going
back to my mom's words, which
is, you know, you can't put all
your eggs in one basket, you
need to be able to have options
at the end of this. And so, I
know, I got weird looks. And I
know, I definitely got people
being like, why is she going to
the Career Center and other
places for resources. But I also
use my first Genesis in some
sense as that strength because
when I did graduate, I had
options to either pursue a
career in academic publications
on the tenure track market, as
well as administration. And so
I'm really thankful that I get I
listened to that advice of don't
put all your eggs in one basket,
and to kind of go around and
figure it out. Because I
definitely did that. Even if I
made mistakes along the way.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Byrant?
Bryant Taylor: I think for me,
very first therapy was the
biggest resource ever,
definitely had to utilize you
OHS mental health resources just
because it does get really,
really hard here. Being at a
predominantly white institution,
being queer. in Eugene, both of
those things intersecting being
a first gen student as well just
feels it can be very, very
lonely and trying to navigate
this space can be very, very
difficult. I think also having
to rely on peer support. At
CSUB, I was a transfer student,
peer mentor, so I really like
peer to peer connections. And so
when I tore my Achilles, I
actually got an undergraduate
peer mentor to like, help me
keep me on track because I was
just like, I'm just about to
quit, I was just like, you know,
this isn't, for me, I'm injured,
I'm tired. I'm in pain, like,
you know, having that peer to
peer support felt really, really
good, I think, especially to
having an outside of my
department, because, again,
we're inaugural so we're very,
very small. But I think being
able to kind of access and speak
to someone about you know, what
grad school is, like, even
though they were undergrad, just
be able to vent to someone else
was very, very good. And of
course, I think something else
that was really, really helpful
was being able to play tennis,
for, for the very short time
that I had it within my first
quarter. And then of course,
later on when I was able to
recover, because I think having
that physical outlet and
something that I was able to
play since I was a little kid
was able to take me out of the
grad school environment and out
of the like, you know, strict
you have to do you have to read
this, you have to write this you
have to read this and write this
and grade this and talk to your
professors about this, it really
kind of reconnected me back into
my body, when all the time
you're supposed to be in your
head and you're supposed to
privilege kind of your your
thoughts 100% of the time. And
of course, always going back to
Chantal and being like, I'm
gonna quit, I'm so tired. I hate
it here. was a really helpful
resource to lean on. Because I
think, you know, Chantal
mentioned, you know, having so
many options, and I think that's
a really good point. Because as
grad students, we're so we're
told to focus so much on just,
you know, finishing getting your
PhD, whatever. But no one really
talks to us about the different
options that can come after, or
the different options that can
occur while you're in your
program. And so, it's really
important to kind of see, you
know, your five plus years,
holistically instead of just
being this one lane, because
otherwise you can easily go
insane. Focusing on just the
one.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Yeah,
yeah. You know, in terms of like
thinking about those options. I
mean, that's something that
Chantel and I've talked about
privately, you know, I don't
know how much this is, this is
the case in your program, Brian,
but when I was a graduate
student, first of all got the
big life of the mind speech
which sounds like it's still a a
common speech from from Grad
directors and whatnot, right?
And so right the emphasis was
always on right cultivating this
quote unquote, life of the mind.
And producing producing students
who would go on to to be
professors at research one
institutions now. Now
thankfully, I think the
realities of you know, gesturing
wildly around me the world have
have made people realize in 2022
that like, not everyone will get
a research one job because they
just don't exist as much
anymore. Right. And so I think
there's, there is a lot more
diversification of, of kind of
career paths. But there's still
such a strong emphasis on people
joining the professorial, in one
way or another, right. And so,
you know, one of the things
that, that that, that I hope
starts to continues happening
more and more is people
realizing, and, and encouraging,
right folks to look at many
different potential pathways
with their PhD, right, that you
don't have to become a
professor, and that there are a
lot of like, Great fulfilling
important career paths, right,
that make an excellent use of a
PhD. But like, I also feel like
that still, that realization
still lags in a lot of advisors.
Right, but maybe less so in
mentors?
Shantel Martinez: Yes, I would,
I would agree, I think that's
actually one of the reasons the
differences between advising and
mentorship. Because I think
that, in my personal opinion,
when you're advising, you almost
get like a slice, like a slice
of the pie or a snapshot of that
person, like you're advising
them specifically on a project,
or you're advising them on how
to finish your dissertation, or
you're advising them through a
program. But I think mentorship
in my personal opinion, it's
about mentoring the whole
person, all of them, their
stories, their community, their
family, you know, the ties that
ground them, right, it's the
entire person, all of their
experiences, including the
experiences of trauma that you
are mentoring them with. And I
also think that mentorship, just
kind of similar to what Brian
just said, is, it's not a top
down situation, it is a side to
side, like we're walking this
path together. And that's to me,
I think one of like I said, in
my personal opinions, some of
the differences between advising
and mentorship, because I think
mentorship, it can and I tried
to do this with my students
really open up paths, and space
for empathy and vulnerability on
both for both people. And I
think that's one of the beauties
and strengths of mentorship,
rather than advising, which
sometimes can feel
transactional.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Yeah. And
sometimes it has to be right. I
mean, speak, putting on my
advisor hat for a second. I
mean, there's, there are like,
like, we have in our program,
one of the things that I really
appreciate about our graduate
program at Texas a&m, insert
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program at Texas a&m, is that we
do have like, we have clear
benchmarks, right, that people
are supposed to meet along the
way. And that puts kind of like,
I mean, it's in our grad
handbook. Right. And so when you
enter, you know, what the
expectations are kind of as you
move through the program, and
how you move through the program
in good standing and is, you
know, yeah, there's some
fuzziness with some of that
stuff, right? I mean, and their
ideals, but like, you know, part
of my job as an advisor is to
help keep you focused on those
benchmarks. It is it's, it's
almost definitionally
transactional, to the benefit of
the student to write of like,
okay, you know, what, what can I
do to help you, right, be sure
that you're doing this, this,
okay, I can give you this
information, I can point you in
this direction, I can listen to
you to what to, you know, to
your questions about X, Y, and
Z, and it's all kind of laid
out. Yeah, mentorship is, is a
bit is a bit of a different a
different beast. Brian, what
about what about you? What do
you think is, are some of the
similarities and differences
between advisors and mentors?
Bryant Taylor: You know, I think
that's a good question. And I'm
trying to think because I only
have one advisor right now, but
I feel like our, our
relationship is actually kind of
gearing more into a mentorship
role. At the moment, just
because I feel like there is
that openness and willingness to
kind of communicate and I feel
like there's groundwork being
laid that feels that feels I
guess, less transactional and
more collaborative. So I'm not
necessarily sure the differences
yet but maybe when I like start
building my own committee and my
you know, my things like that
all I'll be able to tell the
difference. But I think, I don't
know I feel like maybe maybe I'm
being a little naive, but I
think that hopefully I can kind
of you know, cultivate
relationships like that, that
feel kind of mentorship be with
all of my future committee
members. Or advisors just
because I feel like you know, it
feels it feels Good, you know,
mentorship feels really, really
good when it when it's more
personal and more collaborative,
I guess than transactional. In
that sense.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: I don't
think that's naive at all. And,
and I think, I think I think it
may also be, in part at least a
product of the program that
you're in, right? That you're in
an intellectual space that is,
that is full of people who are,
who kind of like, navigate the
end and problematize the borders
between, right intellectual
work, activist work, organizing
work, and are always kind of
pushing back against the
constraints of disciplinary
formations, right. That's the
beauty of being in a kind of
interdisciplinary space in some
ways. And it's, you know,
someone like be who was in a
stuff fairly interdisciplinary,
but still very disciplined and
disciplinary graduate program in
communication. I found that kind
of life and those kinds of
relationships outside of those
spaces in in the kind of like,
more ethnic studies, types of
spaces at my university and
beyond my university as well.
Bryant Taylor: Yeah, I think
that's a really, really good
point. You know, I never thought
about like the, the differences
outside of my own, outside of my
own bubble, because it is still,
you know, a small program. So,
yeah, that that definitely makes
sense. A bit of it being
different. I guess it also goes
back to, you know, kind of being
picky about who you have as
advisors as well, because you do
have to spend a lot of time with
them, so it can feel like, you
know, yeah, I don't know, I
shouldn't say there.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: So, how
is it that you think you find a
good mentor, Brian, or offer
yourself up as one for others,
Shantel? Like, when do you do
those things? And how do you
make it work?
Bryant Taylor: Should we tell
our? Our origin story?,
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Obviously,
the answer is yes.
Shantel Martinez: Yes. I think
we should tell our origin story.
I think you tell it beautifully.
Bryant, go ahead.
Bryant Taylor: It was a cool
summer day in Monterey,
California. 2019, I believe was
the year and UROC was hosting
like this panel for you. UROC is
the Undergraduate Research
Opportunity Center at California
University, Monterey Bay. And
they were hosting like a panel
of faculty to talk about, you
know, the graduate school
experiences like how to navigate
graduate school, how to apply
for funding their research and
stuff. And so I come in, I'm
sitting there in the program was
have stem heavy, so there's a
lot of STEM faculty there. But
then, Dr. Shantel Martinez
introduces themselves and they
were talking about, you know,
how they were able to use their
research to go abroad, they were
talking about how they were
first gen. You know, they were
talking about all this
beautiful, wonderful things that
they were doing with their
research. I was like, Oh my
gosh, like, I need to talk to
her, like, ASAP. And so I forgot
if I went up to you after the
event, or if I like II sent you
an email after? I think you sent
me an email. Yes. Okay. So I
sent an email and was like, hey,
like, I really enjoyed your
talk. Like, is it possible for
us to meet at Starbucks, so I
can pick your brain asking more
questions. And Chantal, being
the wonderful person she is she
was like, Yeah, for sure. Oh, my
gosh, you know, thank you so
much. Ah, so we meet at
Starbucks. And, you know, I feel
like we just kind of instantly
clicked like, I was asking all
these questions about research
abroad. And then we started
like, talking about our lives
and like sharing our own
personal stories with each
other. And I don't, I don't
know, I felt like after that
moment, I was just like, she has
to be my mentor, like, like,
it's a perfect match. And three
years later, we've been happy
ever since.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Like, did
you like follow up and be like,
sending emails? Will you be my
mentor? Please? Do you formal
like that? Or did it just just
kind of like fall into the
Bryant Taylor: You know, in
terms of formality actually
roles?
didn't happen much later on? I
think maybe, like, in the middle
of fall last semester. And I was
like, hey, you know, I'm going
to switch mentors. What do you
want to be my mentor, please?
And she's like, absolutely. But
I think, you know, I think ever
since that moment, like she was
inviting me to, you know, the,
the the CCME barbecue, she was
picking on me, she was like
recommending things for me to
read. We would keep in contact
and still like talk about my
research and just talk about our
lives. And so I guess the
informal mentorship was already
happening right at that moment
of, you know, the Yurok oven at
Starbucks. But I guess to get
back to the question of, you
know, how do you find a good
mentor? I think you kind of have
to know what your values are and
what you want from a mentorship
relationship. And I think At
that time, I was really looking
for guidance on how to like,
make the most of my
undergraduate experience. And so
when, you know, Shantel was
speaking, it was kind of
aligning with all the things
that I hoped my, you know,
undergrad would be. And then of
course, when I sat down with
her, it felt like, oh, like,
She's family, you know, like,
she gets it, she understands
what it's like to be first gen
BIPOC, queer, like, all of these
things just kind of aligned. You
know, in a space that kind of, I
wasn't really finding that at
that time. And so, you know,
kind of going in knowing what
your values were, are, really
play a role into who you
attract? And you know, who you
keep an eye out for? For sure.
Shantel Martinez: Yeah. And I
think that's such an important
part. And I think You named her
so incredibly, beautifully
Bryant, of like, knowing what
your values are, because I think
that oftentimes, you know,
especially for academics, and
for students who are, you know,
high achieving her driven, we
don't actually stop and take
that deep critical reflection of
what is what are our values,
right, you know, it's just kind
of going from one step to the
next step to the next. And I
think really sitting down and
being like, you know, What
expectations do I have for a
mentor? You know, what, what
type of mentorship relationship?
Am I looking for, you know, what
are my values? Um, do they align
with this person? I think that's
really important. And I also
think that sometimes things just
happen organically, too, right?
You know, the thing that Brian,
like, doesn't share in this
beautiful, beautiful story is
that when we went to go to
Starbucks, he was fully prepared
with a notebook full of
questions, and a recorder, like
ready to go. And I was just
like, Who is this student, this
student was a better student
than I ever was in undergrad.
And he really like took my
breath away in such a great way.
And I was just like, I want to
work with this student, like, I
know, this student is on to
amazing things, and I want to be
able to be part of their story
and to get them to the next
place. And I think Funny enough,
I'm kind of like the name of
this podcast, that shadow
advisor, I've kind of really
have played that role all along
with Brian Eno, because he has
been accepted to, you know,
summer research opportunities
during the summer, where he had
a specific advisor for the
program. And then there I was in
the shadows being like, by the
way, you should be reading bell
hooks, by the way, you should be
also looking into this bridge
called my back, by the way, have
you checked out some indigenous
feminist theories, you know, But
I think that's, that's also the
beauty of it is that you don't
need to have just one mentor, or
one advisor, I think it's kind
of like a collect them all kind
of a situation, right? And that
one mentor can never be the end
all be all for everything in
your life. You know, I have
certain mentors that are
specifically for my career. And
I also have other mentors who
know me on a much more personal
level, right? And that's okay,
that's totally okay to have
multiple mentors in your life.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: So what
does healthy mentorship look
like? Both as a mentee and as a
mentor?
Shantel Martinez: That's a
really great question. And, for
me, I think it comes down to
trust, you know, that inner
circle of trust, right? almost
kind of like a Vegas rule. Like
what's said here stays here.
Because I think that it also can
really lends to spaces, again, a
vulnerability and empathy. I
know, that's something that
Brian and I really have in
common, both of our scholarship
and our work is about embodied
knowledge. And you know, that
the body serves as an archive,
you know, and so we both
research very, very similar
things. And so because of our
research topics, you know, there
are moments where I'm really,
really vulnerable with Brian,
whether it's in terms of my own
mental health, if I have to be
like, hey, you know, kiddo, I'm
really sorry. But I've had a
panic attack this morning. And I
actually can't meet with you
right now. I'm not in the mental
health space to do so. But can
we reschedule and having that
level of grace, because there's
been times to where Brian's
reached out to me and he's like,
I'm really overwhelmed with
school. Can Can you help me can
we reschedule? And it's, it's
never a judgment. It's like,
Yep, I got you. No worries,
let's do this. So I think it's
it really comes down to again,
the that level of trust,
vulnerability and empathy and
again, knowing that we're
walking this pathway together,
because I think it's really
important not to bamboozle our
students thinking that our lives
are the best and we never have
any problems and we're never
stressed and, you know, the
academy loves us and you know,
are tendering us left and right,
and that, you know, we don't get
in fights with other faculty
members, you know, all of those
things that never never happens,
right. Thank you. I am still
open with Brian about that
because I want him to know that
just because you have a PhD or
you're on the other side, it
isn't always rainbows, unicorns
and kittens. There still can be
trials and tribulations and and
again, I think that goes back to
this notion of options like are
these the trials and
tribulations you actually want
and want to experience in your
life and giving that person a
sense of agency and control over
those decisions? So that's what
I would kind of my little two
cents are on it. What's your
thoughts? Bryant?
Bryant Taylor: I completely 100%
agree to everything that you
just said. And I think another
component two is having a mentor
that listens to you. And vice
versa, because I feel like
again, mentorship can sometimes
be seen as being like this top
down thing or like your lemon
tea, and you have to, like, you
know, take in all this
information. But I think, you
know, the times that I have
shared with Chantel was just
very often pretty much every
single day. The feeling of being
heard really goes a long way in,
in, I think, establishing, you
know, trust, empathy.And, you
know, all the all the other
ingredients that make mentorship
go so well. Because I think,
yeah, as a mentee, it can be
kind of daunting when you're
like, oh, my gosh, this figures
has graciously graciously taken
me under their wing and is
providing you all this
knowledge. But, you know, being
heard, and I guess not
necessarily just heard, but
like, actively listened to.It
goes, it goes such a long way.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: That's
great. Yeah, I want to be
mindful of of our time. And I do
have a final question. That's
not about mentorship. But I do
want to ask you one, one last
question about mentorship. And
that is like, do you have it?
It's okay, if you don't, but but
I have a feeling you do? Do you
have like, like one big takeaway
about mentorship? Like, what's
the what's the key mentorship
takeaway for you? Either from
the perspective of like, of a
grad student, and that go for
both? Yes. And since Shantel,
you've you've been you were a
grad student at one point, or
as, as a, as someone, you know,
someone who engages in, in that
mentorship of others, which both
of you have to have experience
with as well. But like, what do
you think is like one big
takeaway that you'd want
listeners to have in mind, as
they start reflecting about
their own relationship to
mentorship in their lives and
their academic lives?
Shantel Martinez: So I totally
have something and this is about
this is something that Bryant
and I are actually co writing
right now is, find a mentor
who's also invested in joy, and
helping you to find your joy.
Because I think so often in
academia, you know, this becomes
our sole identity. And so, you
know, our self worth our
identity is really tied to our
levels of productivity, and what
are we doing and how many
accolades do we have and
whatnot. And I think that
something in terms of mentorship
is, again, remembering that
you're, you're mentoring the
whole person. And that whole
person includes joy, and
pleasure, and also having a life
and identity outside of
academia. And that's great. And
you should encourage that.
Because, again, you know, I have
learned through lots of years of
therapy, that academia is my
job, it's not my identity. And
so I've really had been
cultivating a space of
redefining what does Joy look
like in my life. And so now I
make it a point, when I mentor
my students of asking them, So
what brings you joy? You know,
what brings you joy, what brings
you pleasure, pleasure, what
makes you laugh, you know, that
deep, deep, deep belly laugh. So
that's what I would say is find
a mentor who's also invested in
helping to cultivate your joy.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Yeah, so
important. Bryant?
Bryant Taylor: Ditto, 100%, find
someone that encourages you to
find joy. And I think also too,
you know, for people trying to
find a mentor, it's definitely
important to be open, but also
be picky on who you let mentor
you. You know, just because not
everyone. Not every mentor is a
good fit or match. And, you
know, sometimes they'll be
looking for something different
than one person can provide. And
that's totally fine. It's
totally okay. Also to to switch
mentors and to try you know, you
know, meet different people. But
do not ever get stuck with
someone that, again, doesn't
encourage you just find joy,
but, you know, kind of makes you
miserable as well. Definitely do
not do that.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Yeah,
seems like that would that
wouldn't be a mentor, a really,
or at least not a good mentor
anymore, right?
Bryant Taylor: Yeah, definitely
not. No.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: If you're
using the language of being
stuck, probably not the most
positive experience. So my final
question for y'all. This is a
question I gave you in advance.
So I hope you have your three
things. So the question I want
to end interviews with is what
are your top three things that
you wish people had told you
going into grad school or while
in grad school? Top three things
number them please.
Shantel Martinez: Bryant. Do you
want to go first?
Bryant Taylor: Yeah. So my
number one is, when you're
deciding schools, make sure
you're factoring in like
activities that you like to do.
Because, yeah, like one of my
things was like, I really love
to play tennis. And so one of
the deciding factors was like,
which school has a club tennis
team that can be on for five
years? To get me through? Number
two is prepare.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: That's
important.
Bryant Taylor: It's really
important, right?
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: That it
is really important. Yeah, I
mean, it Yeah, of grad school is
not it's, it can't be all
consuming in that way. I mean,
it can be, but it's not
particularly healthy when it is.
So yeah, like having that
outlet. So key,
Bryant Taylor: Yeah. And it
saves you a lot of stress. Trust
me on that one, y'all. The
second one would be to prepare
kind of emotionally for you
know, different things that
might happen. Because again,
life happens throughout. So make
sure that you have you know,
your your backup plans, your
backup backup plans is to make
sure that if something does
happen, you have things to fall
on. So that way you can recover
and rest. And then also to the
third thing is actually to
factor in recovery and rest.
When you're making your
schedules for the quarter your
semester, whatever it is, I am
one who always forgets to do
that. And I am one that always
ends up crashing second week. So
don't be like me, make sure you
get in that recovery. Rest Time.
Shantel Martinez: I ditto all of
that. Yes, I Ditto, so much of
that. I think that, you know,
again, something was to take
care of your body take care of
your mind. So going back to that
notion of rest, and that it is
okay to give yourself permission
to take breaks. And it's not
always just to go Go, go, go go.
I think my second piece of
advice is maintain a life and
identity outside of the academy,
right? Like, make sure you have
other places that you can pull
from whether that's your family,
whether it's the surrounding
community of the university,
like make sure you have a life
outside of the university. I
worked at this really cool wine
store slash wine bar when I was
working when I was at Urbana
Champaign, and that was the best
thing ever, because it made me
have a life outside of it. And
the third thing is that always
prepare for the unexpected. You
never know the ways in which
you're going to grow. You never
know the ways in which you're
going to learn or unlearn things
and just be open to new
experiences.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: Awesome,
fantastic advice from both of
you. I wish people had told me
those things before going to
graduate school. One more time,
I really want to thank you all
for for joining me for this
conversation today. It's truly
been a joy to have you to learn
from you. And I hope that our
listeners and I hope I know that
our listeners will feel the same
way. So thank you. Thank you.
Thank you so much for being here
with me today.
Bryant Taylor: Yeah, thank you
so much for having us.
Shantel Martinez: Yes, thank you
so much.
Darrel Wanzer-Serrano: And for
the listeners thank you for
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